A Wish

Tall
Handsome
Erotic

Makes me happy
Amazingly kind
Never a harsh word

Open to new possibilities
Firm Ass

Moves me
Youthfulness

Drives me wild
Roughness when necessary
Endless energy
Arms that protect me
Makes my heart sing
Sexy

I've Gone and Done It

So there is the guy on a television show that has caught my attention. Not show if any of you watch Overhaulin on TLC. I generally watch the channel so when that show started airing of course I watch it. Really enjoyed it. Back to my story: So there is a team of builders that help Chip Foose remake the cars.

And one builder in particular..... He is fine as hell. I mean, I sat up the first time I caught a glimpse of him. And that is what has keep me coming back every time (just to get a look at him). So when I say fine... He has the nicest ass, a clean shaved head and arms that I could totally die in. So since first seeing him, I've been thinking how do I find out more about him. I went on the the Overhaulin website to check out the cast etc. No luck there - only has Chip Foose and the co-hosts, Chris Jacobs and Adrienne Janic (AJ). I gave up for a time... just satisfied that I can see him when I watch the show. But there was a small problem - he is not always in every episode. Disappointment... New idea - check out the fan page on TLC... Read the message board for information.

So this brings me to what I did: So on Thursday, I got up enough nerve to sign up to post on the Overhaulin message board... I wrote the message: "Hey does anyone know the name of the bald guy on the show... He is one of the builders. Any help would be appreciated. Thanks." Thinking that no one will reply - I was happy that I did something about it..If I am meant know his name then the universe will see that it happens. Later in the day I checked back to see if anyone had reply to my post: Yes, his name is Andreas. I can die a happy woman. How could I stop now. So last night I something said there is more that can be done. I search myspace to see if there was more information or a what that I could contact him. I found the next best thing. I emailed one of the hosts of the show to verify that his name is Andreas....

Today was my day - I got the confirmation and I made one more request. "Please tell him I said hello and that he is a Hottie McHot" (not exactly but damn close). I am really feeling good right now. Now it is in the universe's hands - I am just gonna wait and see what happens. - If it is meant to be, it will be.

I Feel Pretty

I went and got my hair did yesterday.

That was an adventure in its self. I had a late appointment -- sometime after 7 pm. Anyway... had a touch up and set (if you don't know what that is, ask and i will expain). Decided to do a curly do this time... Oh my... when my stylist was done - I was looking fierce. I mean hot to trot, lucky for me I decided to wears a sexy top to show off 'the girls". An to top it all off... it was a really warm day. God it is good to be a woman with boobies, and a curvy body.

"Real women have curves" And I can fling my frisbee with the best of them .

Mark Vincent - aka V.D.

So I've decided that I need to meet Mark Vincent. I love the way he looks and his voice gives me chills. His head just makes me what to "touch it". What does a girl in Boston have to do to get a visit.

I am not one of those stalker fans that go crazy and do stupid ass things (all in the name of liking a celebrity). All I do when I like a movie star or singer, is to go see their movies, buy them when they are released and watch them on TV. I don't buy the trashy mags, I draw the line. I am not one to sign up for fan clubs either.

But Mr. Vincent is making me consider changing my mind (not about going crazy)... But if it allows me an opportunity to meet, get a hug and a kiss... Then damn-it sign me up.

My Christmas List

OK people.....
I am starting my list early.




So I want him











And him












And him

Sticky Sticky

I seem to be stuck...

I know where I want to go but for some reason I feel like I'm not moving. I don't know what to do. I mean, I know I need to do something but what it is I am supposed to be doing is eluding me.

Right now I just feel like not dealing with anything or anyone - but alas that is not possible so I think I am just going to turn in early. Tomorrow should bring me closer to some sort of resolution.

Any Takers

Anyone want to play Frisbee?

Call me old fashioned

I've been told that I can be a bit intimidating (not know why because I am as sweet as ever)... Anyway... I got that most of my college career. Not so much as a working professional. But what is it all about? I have a nice smile, and I am very friendly - I guess I'll never really know why....

Anyway.... Yes I admit that I am a strong woman. Yes I know what I want and I've gone after it. I am the responsible, level headed on. I’m the one who makes decision and makes sure that they get implemented. What I want is to not be the dominant one when it comes to romance. I would like to be "wooed" it that is done these days. I don't want to be the one doing the chasing.... I think it would be nice to be chased for one in my life.

I know there are men out there who are fine with a strong independent woman, who is smart, honest, and easy on the eyes. Then WHERE THE HELL ARE THEY? Cause I have yet to see one. Maybe there are on an island in the middle of the pacific combing the beach trying to signal a plane. Or they are just too damn scared to admit that is what they really want?

Life

Well - I known for some time now that life is a bitch and then you die - and in between that shit happens.

So last year I had this great opportunity to change careers... A little history. I've been working a A job that was killing me. I mean the stress was off the scale -- it was not the work, the work I really loved, it was the people that was making my life difficult. My feeling is that a couple of the people who worked in the office were, lets say, threatened by an intelligent black woman. Anyway, so after being there for almost 5 years, I left for a better job or so I thought (that is a story for another day). However, 7 months into that position, the company was snapped up. So I found my self for the first time in about 10 years with some quiet time. Did I mention that while dealing with all the stress at work I decided to go back to school to get a masters degree... oh sorry about that.

Anyway.....As I was saying - I had just started my last class in the program and the announcement came - a much larger, huge in fact (over 10000) company would be buying my small little (250) company and the merger would be completed by the end of August. We were told that we would know in a couple of weeks if we (me) would have a permanent job with the new company. Alas, I tried not to worry about it, I focused on finishing my last class, which happened to be at the beginning of August and a week later I got my offer letter. It had an end date - August 31, 2005 would be my last day. Yes, I got a severance package and a nice chunk of stock, so I was fine. After being in school for the last 2 years I really needed a break, I was so happy to be on Vacation for the first time in a long time.

Finally, September came and I did nothing - I just watched TV, played with my niece and nephew... went shopping and the like. I really need that mental health break. So I gave myself that reward for being a really responsible person and sacrificing my needs for others. In October I said, let me really assess what it is I want to do with the rest of my life. What do I really want to do? So mid October I did some research and set out to do it. This new path required me to take a class and study for a test. I swore that I was done with anything class and studying relate - but for the one I made an exception. So I took the class and studied. In November it paid off.... I took the test and became licensed. Yeah Me. I was so proud of myself. This meant the beginning of what I wanted.

Just one little problem - my new career is commission based and I've only made one sale so far... And the savings are getting to the end. Gotta find a way to fix it that... How to make additional money while promoting my new career? Here are some of the ideas I've discarded:

prostitute - don't like walking
drug dealer - too dangerous
picking up cans - too dirty
surrogate mom - too much of a time commitment
selling my eggs - don't like needles (I seriously considered until I found out about the shots)

Nothing else has come to mind - so please if you have any other ideas please let me know.

Did you miss me?

Well, mothers day was good and bad... Yeah it was nice to appreciate moms for all that she does. But it was bad cause I got sick. And I mean really sick. I lost my voice, my head felt like someone took a sledgehammer to it and then to top it all off, I had cramps that could kill an elephant. Not a pleasant week for me. I was laid up in bed with no one to care for me..... But I am finally able to lift my head and open my eyes for an extended period of time. I am not back to 100% yet but I am getting there. Look see I can type. What ever illness I currently have I hope that it goes away and never comes back. Cause this one was not pretty....

Mother

Today is mother's day and I would like to say to my mom - I love you.

Yes you can get on my nerves as all mothers do..., yes you harp on my all the time and yes you complain about everything I do.. but I still love you and always will.

Happy Mother's day to you.

Things in my head...

Can't seem to get my mind to calm down. I have so many different things that I want to do that I am so overwhelmed I don't know where to begin. Why does that happen. I know exactly where I want to be but I can't seem to find a direct road that leads to it. Such a pain in the ass... I say a quote that said something like "this is no elevator to success, so you have to take the stairs..." that is so true... and God only know how many flight you have to walk to get to the top. An unfortunately, I am a bit out of shape so it is taking me a lot longer to make it up the stairs.

I am trying to keep a positive attitude... There are things that I know for certain... I can not avoid paying taxes and I am gonna die on day...Then there are things that I am sure about... I am gonna be successful - in business, in love and in life. I just need to be patient and take it one day at a time and the universe will reward me.

One hell of a week

This week has been shitty... the rain just won't stop falling.. I swear we are going to be washed away. I knew I should have spent more time listening during swim class... LOL

I have 2 graduations to attend this weekend and I am going to have to actually plan what to wear... considering these damn graduations are outside on the grass.. We shall see. Damnit I am going to wear my knee high boots and slicking my hair back. Cause I ain't trying to look cute in the rain...

Quote of the Day

While breaking the bread at Joe's American Grill my sister exclaims " oh my god, I got a splinter"

Bad Girl, the sequel

The title says it all......This time I had a good reason... I had the worse headache in the world. Felt like someone had a nail to my head and was pounding and pounding it deep. Yeah I could not even open my eyes the light bothers me so much. This one started Saturday night and just got worse....

Bad Girl

I was a bad bad girl... I spent the day in bed... Just watching tv and reading...It was such a good day out but I just need a bed day.

TGIF

Another week has ended. I got a bunch of stuff done this week, more that I have in previous weeks. The only reason for that is the change in the weather....I find that I don't like cold weather... And I know what your question to me is...What the hell is she doing in Boston? Well let me tell you..when I was a little girl, 13, I came to Boston with my mom and sister from a small Caribbean island....Yes, I am an island girl.... April we arrived at Logan, my in my sun dress... and proceeded to freeze my ass off -- Looking back it was probably in the low 60 but to someone who had lived their entire life on an island where the temp never drop below 70 degrees.. I was in trouble. Anyway, that winter, I saw snow for the first time. I was naive, I did not know anything about snow.. did not realized that when I touched it it would be cold and wet. Could you blame me, was not part of my world. But I've never gotten used to the cold weather....and it's been 20 years... you think I could handle it...No, I don't like it at all..

Yes, I will definitely be moving to a warmer climate... yes sir...

The Sun is back....

I had a very good day today. Spent the day outside enjoying the beautiful sunshine. Had lunch with a friend, saw a bunch of people who haven't seen me in a long time (who by the way was all surprised by the way I looked, guess they not used to seeing me smile), and did a little shopping (that was fun, you find the best stuff when you do thing on the fly).

I got the cutest skirt and the most adorable shoes.. (unfortunately I underestimated the fit of said shoe)... lets just say, they look really nice on my foot but don't ask me to walk anywhere...LOL. Hung out at the barnes and noble for a while... the books can be really fun... watching people and such... I swear once of these day I am gona meet my future husband at the barnes and noble - not sure what section yet but its gonna happen, I can just feel it. Anyway... a couple of friends were there and we talked and laughed and talked somemore. It was a nice relaxed enjoyable evening.

Did I mention that I looked and felt beautiful today? If I didn't well I am so sorry. But damn-it I did. Haven't felt like that in a long time, it was rather nice. I will have to replicate that more often. There is something to be said about putting on heels and a nice frock and doing up your hair that bring out the woman you me. Hips a swaying and everything... I am liking have my hair longer... there is something to I am thinking. Got a lot of compliments about it today. Think I will not cut it afterall, just gonna let it grow out a bit more... will still keep the layers but most definitely liking the length (at least I did today).

Rain Rain GO Away.....

Rainy days can be so hard. I just want to stay in bed and not go outside. But in the real world that is not possible I am guessing. But we all know why I really have a problem with rainy days... LOL

Alas, I went out in it today. And it was not nice...but I got all the running around that I needed to do done... I was bouncing along with my music...nice and loud. I think I have the music a little too loud. I have a monster of a headache. I can just tell that this one is going to be nasty. I've not had a really bad headache in a few months. I already took 4 extra strength tylenol and nothing as yet. I felt a little dizzy when I was parking the car earlier...that is odd.. since the car was not moving at the time.

But aside from my head problems....today was a very uneventful day, had a couple of interesting phone calls but all that they produced was the knowledge that I have a lot of work to do. Yes, I do work... I do a little bit of this and a little bit of that....

Tomorrow on the other hand should be fun... meeting a former co-worker for lunch...I've not seen her in over a year, so that will be very nice to get caught up. I've realized to do more of reconnecting/networking. It is the one thing that I never was able to do well. But you can't get good at something unless you practice...

Quote of the Day

"I would be more comfortable in my own skin if there wasn't so much pressure on it from my bra and waistband" (from a friend of a friend's mom)

Giving in to Impulse

So I broke down and bought a walkman today... Yes, an updated version of an old school tool...I am not the kind to be constantly listening to music - like I would if I had a long train ride and such. I just need something that I can use when I walk on the treadmill. And the hassle of loading all my cd to an ipod was not something I care to spend time doing... And no I am not an music service person. I also picked up a couple new cds - Pink, Prince, Kelly Clarkson, Busta Rymes, and Gorillaz. Couple of the cd are for my sister who likes rap. I got a good deal... it came with a car kit... Cause I am still driving an older car and I never bothered to put in a cd player... yes, I still have a tape deck. So now I can listen to my cd in the car.. very happy about that. Just trying to get back to music and other stuff that had been neglected for the past couple of years.

Update - Ladies Night

The first ladies night was really nice... It was only four of us but that was fine. We met up at LEGS's house for dinner and conversation. She made an awesome spread--salad with salmon, buffalo chicken wings with veggies and dip, blackened rice, baked Cornish hens, and a rum cake for dessert. Dinner with really nice. When we go there dinner was not ready, so we began to sample wine... 2 bottles later dinner was ready. That lead to a third bottle of wine... During dinner we chatted about random things. We touched a little on men (of course)...2 of 4 are in a relationship. It was really nice to feel the support of females who are doing it... We all are well educated...2 of us have masters degrees...And everyone has really good careers ... Most of us own our own homes... We would be considered young professionals.

It is hard to imaging my life without that female support systems to fall back on when you are having a hard time or when you are succeeding. That bond is something that helps us to stay grounded and hold on to our strengths.

Anyway, we ended dinner and moved on to dessert...Rum cake and champagne with strawberries. We watch a couple of movies and when it was all said and done.. It was 3 am and time to get home. I should have just stayed where I was and be done with it. But I made it home in one piece (thank the lord). Did not get to sleep until sometime after 4 but I sleep like a baby.. Until my eyes opened sometime mid Saturday afternoon...

Can't wait for next month get-together.

Happy May

Well it is the first of may and the sun is shining... Granted it is not really all that warm but this means that summer will be here in no time at all. Gotta get ready for graduations and celebrations. I have a couple of my friends who are graduating from college. I am extremely proud of them. My best friend, LEGS...has finally completed her Bachelors. It has taken her a long time but she did it. I can't express the overwhelming feeling of happiness I have for her accomplishment. She has been through it and she came out on top. Congratulations Sister, you did it and you did it well... She is gearing up to begin a preparing the GMAT -- (you know that damn test). And hopefully she will get into the masters program that she really wants.

Ladies rule... We can do it and have it all.