OK Damn-it I ain't that strong...

Well today I cried and cried. I am not emotionally equip to handle death. I admit it, I am a wimp.

I went to the funeral of one of my best friend's brother this morning. Needless to say, it was a sad day all around. But more so because he was only 18 years old with a life full of potential. He was going to be one of those good guys that make it despite what was happening in the community. He was a good kid, I mean he was into sports, his family and his community all in a positive way. A way that would make a parent and even strangers proud. His passing is still a great disbelief. I remember this cute little boy all of 4 hanging out with his big sister. Over the years he grew into a fine kid ready to take on the world with his love and courage. He will be missed. My heart goes out to his family especially his sister, my friend.

What a day, What a day

Today was a hard day... I was riding an emotional roller coaster. First the day started of with a successful meeting with a client and good conversation in terms of a vision or direction for a new business venture.

Then I got The Call... The one that tore my heart out. One of my best friends brothers (only 18 years old) was shot and killed. I know my friend is in such shock and pain with the loss of her brother.. He was her heart, her everything. See, she is was a teenager herself when he was born... Not many kids have a little brother in high school. I was so funny because me and another friend all had siblings around the same age. I liked that we had that in college. And now as they get ready to head off to college... This tragedy happens.

I just don't know what to say, the pain, the grief is so great. All I can say to her is that I am here for you. Whatever you need.

Interesting Information?

So I had a conversation with Pound Cake's brother the other night..... Well it wasn't really a conversation more I needed a man's perspective. I just wanted to know when men were so (let's just say) stupid. Why don't they realize that there are some fabulous single women just waiting to be romanced (myself and Pound Cake included, they are many others). Mind you we are all beautiful, educated, and just plain nice.

I do understand that he does not speak for the entire male population but I just need to get some incite. As we chatted, he said that one of the reason we don't have significant others was that we know too much. That (some) men don't like smart women. I guess we are just to smart for out own good and with that we just don't need me. He suggested that we switch teams... Yeah he said that… He did say something about us being partially desperate... That one I am still trying to figure out.

I am going to have to do some more research. So far this quite unsettling.

A Hell-Of-A-Day

Can you believe it...? I actually worked today. Got up and had to be somewhere by 7 am and worked until sometime after 7 pm. Boy that brings back memories. I am rather used to my self-employed life... But I had to help a friend out so I did. I am such a nice person, no really I am. Most people say that they are nice and they are not. But when I say I am a nice person I really do mean it. If you don't believe me ask any of my friends.

Happy 4th?

Today is Tuesday....The family is here making me miserable. I really don't feel good at all. My head is killing me and so is my stomach. And to top it all off I am hungry.

So for my big holiday dinner - I had a big bowl of cereal. For my head - I had some very strong drugs. Oh did I mention that I am so hot I feel like I am melting.

Well damn, the drugs should kick in soon and I will be in lalaland.

Hope you had a good day.

Never Mind Who You Thought I Was!!

I Am A Sexy Bitch

Relax, Relate, Release

An what a good morning it has turned out to be....it is 2 am and I've just returned home for a nice evening out. Tried a new place today - The City Bar at the Lenox Hotel. The atmosphere was very nice and relaxing. The music was a mixture of old school and new stuff.. with a little pop thrown in for good measure.. or should I say a little Mr. Marley...Mr. Brown and Shabba was on the play list as well... The drinks were nice although, a bit limited.. I had my heart set on an Alabama Slamma but I was told that they did not have the ingredients necessary to make it and was promptly presented with a dirnk menu... what ever was on the list was pretty much it.. unless it was an uncomplicated drink...

I started off with the Tiki Tonic - not what I expected.. after a while my tounge began to burn (that is the best way to describe it).. I know they was some sort of spice rum that was used but i could not put my fingure on it.. finally I asked the bar tender - and she said the infused rum that was used had ginger pieces in the bottle.. so I got a different drink... a Guava Martini, yum.

So I pretty much nursed that drink for the remainder of the evening.. and sat back with Pound Cake and people watch. We were eyeing the bouncer all night, actually she was... very cute if I do say so myself. All in All a wonderful evening.